Yesterday I Gave Up on My Dream

Yesterday..... I was ready to give up.  Give up on the dream. Give up on what brings me joy.  Give up on me.  It isn't the first time and it probably won't be the last.  Yesterday, the voice in my head beckoned me to stop sacrificing my family and their needs for my selfish dream.  Yesterday I focused on lack.  Yesterday my dream was insignificant.  Yesterday everyone around me was "suffering" so I could live my purpose. Yesterday I hated myself. Yesterday I chose everyone else's needs before my own.  Yesterday I was sad, alone, tortured and "in my shit".  Yesterday I was 3 feet from gold and I was gonna say fuck it.  Yesterday the "grey zone" looked enticing and promising and well to be honest comfortable.  

Today.... I decided to choose.  Today I decided my cup was empty and I needed to refill it.  Today I decided to believe in me.  Today I choose to have hope and see the possibilities.  Today I know who I am and how I may serve others.  Today I am in my power and love myself.  Today the future is bright and abundant.  Today I trust and today I have faith.  Today I surrender and today I recognize that my dream has worth.  Today I AM.  

Tommorrow.... who the hell knows! So I'm going to choose to stay in Today.